urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami Toxic Chicks Rule the World italianmami 2004-04-12T09:36:45Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:9868 2004-04-12T09:36:45Z 2004-04-12T09:36:45Z HeLp Me HeLp Me!!!!!! alright here how life is now!<br /><br />im stressed out all the time, and when i get stressed i get sick. my mom thinks i am a hypocondriact(sp?). my mom also thinks that i am a selfish little bitch who is in need of constant attention, which is so not true...im a fuckin middle child, im used to no attention.<br /><br />im going insane living in this house!<br /><br />i love my boyfriend so much, but i cant help to think y he picked me. he is too good for me. i dont deserve such a wonderful person. <br /><br />i want out of the shitty life! i dont want it anymore. its not like they would miss me! i wanna be gone...<br /><br />buh byez urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:9531 2004-04-09T20:59:57Z 2004-04-09T20:59:57Z im doing a friends cut! so if u dont want to be cut, comment and tell me so...<br /><br />later yall urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:9289 2004-04-08T12:18:27Z 2004-04-08T12:18:27Z Take My Breath Away- Jessica Simpson antonio and me are getting our apartment soon! yay...im so excited. it is gunna rock.<br /><br />lol im watching Anger Management. i love adam sandler, i think he is awesome...<br /><br />lol i walked in on Mike watching porn last night, i was like what the fuck!ewwwwy...<br /><br />im supposed to be looking for colleges. i did apply to NYU, UF and CALU. im not sure if they are gunna accept me or not, but those were my top 3, i really want at least one of them.<br /><br />im so sick of getting cloths and then kate lynn wears them before i ever get to wear them. i got these really cute new jeans that i didnt even wear and she got 4 cig holes in it. whatever!<br /><br />ive been laying low of mom...im staying outta the way so she doesnt bug the hell outta me...its working so far. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:9052 2004-04-02T10:10:02Z 2004-04-02T10:10:02Z Martina Mcbride- I Love You lol yesterday was April Fools and i totally forgot... last year i put serand(sp?) rap around the toilet bowls, ya i got bitched at but my brothers thought it was funny...<br /><br />last night i was so crazy...first of all i had too much to drink. so i guess bryan was trying to take me home. but stubborn me didnt want to go. Emma Lee, Fay, Kristal, Lucas, and Patrick were there and we were all having such a good time, i actually felt good to be around people who could relate to me, and that felt awesome!<br /><br /><center><i> its a shame that something so sweet becomes so bitter with time </center></i><br /><br /><br />xoxoxoxo maddie xoxoxoxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:8847 2004-04-01T10:06:48Z 2004-04-01T10:09:24Z Fiona Apple- Criminal hey all!<br /><br />im really cold right now...brrrr!<br /><br />i dont even feel like being mature right now. i just want to do stupid things like shout <b><big> PENIS </b></big> to make people laugh...i kno it sounds dumb but i hate having to mature all the time, its exhausting!<br /><br />i wish my parents would have put me up for adoption when i was a baby, maybe then i would have never met them or even wanted to because my adopters would love me like their own. i would feel wanted and special...<br /><br />bryan gave me his class ring on monday night, it was our two year anniversery. i was a little nervous because for a few months we have been talking about marriage. but im 18 i dont want to marry yet.<br /><br />xoxoxox maddie xoxoxox urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:8662 2004-03-26T13:55:14Z 2004-03-26T13:55:14Z Usher- My Way maybe i better keep it short today i dont have a lot of time...i have to take Jake to basketball practice.<br /><br /><center><i>take your records, take your freedom<br />take your memories, i dont need them</i></center><br /><br />interpret it however, yes it is a song by keith urban!<br /><br />thats all, buh byez...<br /><br />xoxoxox maddie xoxoxox urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:8068 2004-03-22T10:08:17Z 2004-03-22T10:08:17Z D12- My Band well yesterday and the day before i kinda stayed in my room avoiding my mother. i really dont get it, ok it any of us (the kids) screw up for some reason we get grounded. mom fools around for a while and she gets a hot new guy and bags the old one...uh...a lil unfair dont ya think!<br /><br />oh well, and the guys(Jonathan) sons, Robbie and Shawn, are so rude...i cant even stand it.<br /><br />i havent seen bryan in a while, he would kill me if he knew i ran away. i have avoided him too... i guess i better go to school today, i havent gone in a while...<br /><br />xoxoxoxo maddie xoxoxoxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:7932 2004-03-18T14:39:30Z 2004-03-18T14:39:30Z Usher- Yeah ok so this is what has been going on with me lately...<br /><br />i ran away, i stayed with my friends for a while. my mom has been being such a bitch since my dad left. she fuckin rented out part of our house to this dude because she couldnt pay the whole mortgage (sp?. this dude has two sons. as if we dont have enough kids in the house! i dont even think my mom noticed that i was gone.<br /><br />mikie got arrested for 2 ounces of pot. so he violated his probahtion (sp?). he is so screwed!<br /><br />well thats just part of it! <br /><br />im out <br />xoxoxoxo maddie xoxoxoxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:7458 2004-03-17T09:59:04Z 2004-03-17T09:59:04Z ZZzzzZZzzzZZZzzzzzzzZzzzzzZZZ please excuse my short death, i have had hard times lately, i will update later on tonight, right now i have to get ready for school...<br /><br /><br />xoxoxox maddie xoxoxox urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:7211 2004-03-03T23:58:49Z 2004-03-03T23:58:49Z Black Eyed Peas- Dirty Dancing i love Bryan so much! words cant even describe! im sorry if you all dont want to hear this, but it is so true. he is my world! i get up in the mornings just to see him and no one else! <br /><br />anywayz...<br /><br /><marquee><b> i love being happy... </b></marquee><br /><br />o ya and my mom and dad r getting a divorce! whoo hoo, its about damn time! dad is moving out soon and well thats y im so happy. i kno it sounds terrible but it makes me happy!<br /><br />well im gone! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:7158 2004-02-29T05:09:17Z 2004-02-29T05:09:17Z Orishas f/ Heather Headley- Represent Cuba wow, i just got back from seeing Dirty Dancing Havana Nights! it was a good movie, but the first one was a classic. they girl was a horrible actress but Diego Luna was H-O-T, HOT! i might have to ditch my american boy and go for a caliente cuban chico! lol...it just made me want to dance! the funny thing is that i went with my brother Mikie! we never do anything like that, we kinda have a Love/Hate relationship, so that was pretty cool. i feel way to energetic to go to bed...<br /><br />i was gunna see the passion of christ...but i remembered im athiest! wait haha no im not, i just didnt feel like dying! ya did u hear about that? the movie was so intese or whatever so old guy had a heart attack! but anywayz the movie just doesnt sound appealing to me! im sorry if that doesnt make me religous...or whatever! i dont know if i believe in jesus or heaven and hell, i think we all die and then get our memories wiped away and come back to life as something and someone else! and thats just my opinion...<br /><br />ok buh byez! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:6699 2004-02-26T00:09:57Z 2004-02-26T00:23:50Z Celine Dion- Because You Love Me im really tired but i have to stay up and entertain my parents corny guests! isnt that always fun... i swear my parents r so self involved it is disgusting!!!!<br /><br />me and antonio r getting an apartment...im so excitied! we r getting it in march or something. its 3 bedrooms and its so awesome...i get to move out of this hell hole.<br /><br />bryan got in a car accident today! it was scary. i went to go pick him up when he called me. he wrecked his new 350Z i was like o shit!<br /><br />my head hurts! me duele la cabeza... see i learned so espanol! im so proud. <br /><br />i guess i should get back to the boring old people!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:6442 2004-02-22T12:18:33Z 2004-02-22T12:18:33Z Limp Bizkit- My Way ok so we r back home from florida! we had a blast...islands of adventure was so much fun! i love florida! i wanna go live there...<br /><br />today we r going to go play stick ball with these kids! lol i love playing that...<br /><br />as u can tell i am in a good mood for some reason! i dunno y tho...<br /><br />ciao! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:4454 2004-02-19T23:26:52Z 2004-02-19T23:26:52Z Aladdin- A Whole New World **Have You Ever?**<br />*. KISSED YOUR COUSIN? no im not a hick!<br />*. RAN AWAY? ya i do it all the time<br />*. BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART? i hope not :(<br />*. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN? of course<br />*. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED? absolutely!<br />*. BROKEN A BONE? i broke my arm once<br />*. DRANK ALCOHOL? ya hehe<br />*. CRIED IN SCHOOL? ya<br />1. <br />::This or That::<br />*. COKE OR PEPSI? coke<br />*. SPRITE OR 7UP? 7up<br />*. FLOWERS OR CANDY? flowers<br />*. QUIET OR LOUD? loud<br />*. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? Brunettes<br />*. BITCHY OR SLUTTY? Slutty<br />*. TALL OR SHORT? Tall<br />*. JEANS OR SHORTS? Jeans<br /><br />*..::The Last Time You::..*<br />*. SHOWERED? this morning<br />*. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? today with my baby!<br /><br />?...::What Is::...?<br />*. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM? my ring from my grandpop...<br />*. PERSON YOU HATE MOST? aimee<br />*. LUCKY NUMBERS? 21<br /><br />::?::What is your favorite..?::<br />*. COLOR? pink<br />*. MOVIE? crybaby<br />*. BOOK? 1st to die- James Patterson<br />*. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? geometry<br />*. CARS? hummers<br />*. ICE CREAM? Chocolate<br />*. HOLIDAY? halleeween<br />*. SEASON? Winter<br />*. BREAKFAST FOOD? Bacon and eggs<br /><br />'::...Who...::'<br />*. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST? tommy<br />*. MAKES YOU SMILE? Bryan<br />*. WHO HAS A CRUSH ON YOU? these two kids Noah and Keith<br /><br />*?::Do You Ever::?*<br />*. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT? no way<br />*. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS? Nope<br />*. SAVE E-MAILS? If they are worth saving<br />*. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE? No I like who I am<br />*. CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS? sure who hasnt<br /><br />\*\::...Have You...::\*\<br />*. FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? No not really<br />*. MADE OUT WITH JUST A FRIEND? Yes<br />*. BEEN IN LOVE? Sure am<br />*. BEEN IN LUST? Yes<br />*. USED SOMEONE? no<br />*. BEEN USED? I think yes<br />*. CHEATED ON SOMEONE?: no way<br />*. BEEN CHEATED ON? sadly :(<br />*. BEEN KISSED? Sure have<br />*. DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRET? ya<br /><br />...::Who was the last person::...<br />*. YOU TOUCHED? Bryan<br />*. YOU TALKED TO? Bryan<br />*. YOU HUGGED? Bryan<br />*. YOU IM'ed? Michael<br /><br />*..::Do you::..*<br />*. COLOR YOUR HAIR? no<br />*. HAVE TATTOOS? Yes<br />*. HAVE PIERCINGS? yes a few<br />*. HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? yes<br />*. EVER GET OFF THIS DAMN COMPUTER? yes urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:4237 2004-02-19T00:36:57Z 2004-02-19T00:36:57Z P!nk- Love is such a crazy thing ok so me, bry, and mitch got to florida early this morning. we had so much fun driving down here! it is so pretty down here too, me and bryan went to the beach today, and we were surfing, it was cool,(well i was trying to surf)<br /><br />then we went to the hospital to see janel and her bro! we r all going to a theme park tomorrow. it will be fun...<br /><br />im out! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:4063 2004-02-16T09:54:54Z 2004-02-16T09:54:54Z Britney Spears- Toxic ok so yesterday was my 18th b-day! it went to the convience store yesterday and bought cigs and lottery tickets! lol i think ill hold off on the porn for a while...<br /><br />so on valentines day me and bryan went to the resturant, then we went out to a park, and watched the sunset, we talked about things we never talked about before, and we sat there with each other till 10:45...then we went back to my house, cuz my parents werent home, and we cuddled on the couch and watched the valentine...it really was a sweet night, <br /><br />then yesterday my parents threw me this huge party...with all my friends and it was really great, but my best friend wasnt there so i am going to go see her in florida...me and bryan and mitch r going to florida for like a week...just to see Janel and hang out with her!<br /><br />well im out for now, i will write as soon as i can! xoxoxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:3651 2004-02-14T11:15:52Z 2004-02-14T11:43:29Z L-O-V-E <b> Happy Valentine's Day </b><br /><br />yay i love v-day, it is so romantic...yesterday we kinda celebrated it, but not like today...yesterday i found rose petals all over my car and a note under the wipers saying "hey baby, i love you so much. you mean the world to me and i wont let you go. i would die for you! i love you forever, love Bry" i thought that was the sweetest thing ever! tonight i planned it all because tomorrow is my b-day and he is doing something special for me... so we r going to this really romantic resturant, lol i would cook, but ya i really cant. isnt that sad. and the rest is a romantic surprise! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:3554 2004-02-13T10:06:28Z 2004-02-13T10:06:28Z Maroon 5- Harder to Breathe ok so i havent updated in a while...<br /><br />yay! my 18th b-day is sunday...mommy wow im a big kid now! everyone always told me that i would be the one who had kids before i was 16, well im 18 now and im a givin a big FUCK U to everyone who thought that! whoo hoo im so proud.<br /><br />jake ran away the other night. my dad was seriously freaking out, jake is his pride and joy, he doesnt give a rats ass about the rest of us b/c we're old and corrupted! but no not little jakie poo. but now we feel we have done our job of corrupting our baby brother. he carries on the family legacy! lol<br /><br />well i talked to bryan the other day and he told me that he would never cheat on me and that he loves me with all his heart and wouldnt throw that away to be one night with a town whore like her. i really want to believe him but its so hard after what has been happening lately...but i do love him and he will always be in my life.<br /><br />ok well that is it... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:3012 2004-02-10T09:55:07Z 2004-02-10T09:55:07Z Maroon 5- This Love once again, another early morning...<br /><br />after the party on friday, i havent talked to bryan. i want to so bad but not if he is fuckin around with her! i cant stand it anymore, if he did anything with her. its over for good, so im prayin that he didnt!<br /><br />well my parental units got home yesterday, god! dad came back without his wedding ring on too! so i dont kno whats up with that...<br /><br />i dont want to go to school today but i have this huge test that i have to take, so that sux...<br /><br />janel went to florida to see her brother in the hospital. they said he had lung cancer (emphazima)(sp?). she actually started talkin to me and letting me kno what was happening, im scared for her, i dont want her to have to see another one of her close family members die...<br /><br />well i guess i should go... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:2132 2004-02-07T10:47:22Z 2004-02-07T10:47:22Z Oasis- Champagne Supernova i couldnt sleep again last night! i think i have insomnia! lol...<br /><br />antonio was home with his girlfriend yesterday, i think her name was angela, omg she is such a hoe...ok i wear some pretty short skirts, but she wears skirts that r smaller than her shirt! uh..ew!<br /><br />we had a chill party last night...it was fun! we had to u know, i mean the parents r gunna be back on monday so its our end of freedom again bash! lol or whatever...the police started coming over saying they were getting complaints, and then michalena came home for her weekend visit and she was pissed. but it was all good...then guess who shows up...aimee! ya she is all drunk already and starts like grindin with random guys and then start dancing with my man, he was drunk too so he went with. i was like wtf is going on. i was so pissed, cuz i hate aimee with the passion. <br /><br />well thats all for now...ta ta urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:1877 2004-02-06T10:08:28Z 2004-02-06T10:08:28Z Sublime- Garden Grove ok so yesterday was a bad day, i went to school and janel was like being all weird and not talking to anyone, so i caught up with josh (her cousin) and asked him what was going on and he said patrick (her brother) was in the hospital. so that made me sad...<br /><br />then i saw bryan like flirting with this chick aimee. me and aimee go way back. we used to be best friends till she screwed over my brother, and now my boyfriend is flirting with her, so i went over there and bryan starts blushing, so i was like whatever and i left... <br /><br />so i was pissed, but its over, hopefully today will be better<br />! xoxox urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:1762 2004-02-05T10:20:29Z 2004-02-05T10:20:29Z Christina Aguilera- Fighter im up already, its weird i couldnt sleep last night...<br /><br />ok so theres this chick who wants to fight me b/c, well i dont really know why, but i was like ok whatever bring it bitch, she is such a loser, u dont even know. bryan was like u dont need to get in a fight right now, or at all. <br /><br />me, jake and kate lynn were watching tv last night and mikie comes home and is piss drunk. he tries to sit on the couch and falls on the floor, and pukes on it instead. i was laughing my ass off.<br /><br />well im out again! xoxox urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:1307 2004-02-05T00:07:30Z 2004-02-05T00:07:30Z First and Last<br /><br />First best friend: Derek- he commited suicide...<br />First real memory of something: my lil bro jake was born First car: nissan <br />First date: 3 years ago with my ex Lucas <br />First real kiss: with my baby Bryan<br />First break-up: 2 years ago with Lucas<br />First job: no job im spoiled<br />First screen name: StarStruck346<br />First self purchased album: Britney Spears first album<br />First funeral: Derek, my best friend.<br />First pets: a dog, cocoa<br />First piercing/tattoo: my first piercing was when i was a baby, my ears of course, i have a tattoo on my lower back its a black rose with the intials DJA (Derek James Alberto)<br />First credit card: none<br />First true love: Bryan<br />First enemy: Britan she was back home in sicily<br />First big trip: the first time i came to the US i went to California, it was fun<br />First musician you remember hearing in your house: Dean Martin<br /><br />Last cigarette: i dont smoke cigs<br />Last big car ride: dont remember<br />Last kiss: Bryan, a few minutes ago<br />Last good cry: i was scared for my bro so like a couple hours ago<br />Last library book: um...<br />Last movie seen: cold mountain<br />Last beverage drank: Coke<br />Last food consumed: Wheat thins<br />Last crush: Bryan xoxox<br />Last phone call: to Janel<br />Last time showered: this morning<br />Last shoes worn: really cute ones<br />Last CD played: eminem<br />Last item bought: some cute pants<br />Last annoyance: this migraine<br />Last disappointment: my parents coming home sooner than expected<br />Last time wanting to die: i dont really know<br />Last time scolded: *shrug* like I pay that much attention <br />Last shirt worn: a black long sleeve shirt with pink on it<br />Last web site visited: livejournal urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:1269 2004-02-04T22:47:19Z 2004-02-04T22:47:19Z Lil Jon- Get Low its so scary, Mikie is always high. i mean i have lots of people i know who do drugs but like no one i really care about. he trips out so much and it is really terrifing to see him like that. <br /><br />ever time i see bryan i fall so madly in love with him...he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. he tries to help everyone, like we were walking down a street and he saw a homeless man and gave him 5 bucks, i know its not alot but it was so sweet of him.<br /><br />omg so went to school and i have to take a language class, so i decided to take spanish b/c it is alot like italian, and italian is a breeze, obviously, but what do i need spanish for, god i hate it...<br /><br />michalena is engaged, my parents r pissed. lol...like she comes home every weekend, cuz she goes to NYU and like all of a sudden she is engaged. i dont understand.<br /><br />lol janel like fell today in the middle of everyone, we were going to this really high price store with like really snobby chicks and she tripped over the sidewalk, she was like omg lets get out of here...it was so awesome.<br /><br />im out for now... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:italianmami:776 2004-01-31T17:29:33Z 2004-01-31T17:29:33Z Eminem- Criminal i am at home with Bryan, we are going over to his casa soon. Janel and Mitch were supposed to meet us to go eat something but they called and Janel was like sick, so i am going to go over and see her later.<br /><br />mom and dad r leaving again for a "business" trip, and leaving us home alone...par-tay! i love when they r gone. <br /><br />im so glad its the weekend, i went to see cold mountain this weekend and it had major sex scenes, so guys u all would probably like them!<br /><br />well im out for now...